Never in my life have a really been a beginning-of-the-year, goal-setting kind of girl. Life was always full enough right now, at this moment for me to wrap my head around intentionally adding more. Going from working full time while also going to school full time right to marriage/house/work and general adulting just seemed like more than enough, thank you very much. Don’t get me wrong, I did things that required long-term commitments and hard work (paying for a wedding and running a half marathon come to mind) so I guess you could say I just wasn’t intentional about setting “goals.” Whatever, you get what I’m trying to say here, right?
2016 was probably the worst year I’ve ever had for intentional forward movement and personal growth. I spent the first half being scared and pregnant, the control freak in me trying to anticipate what life would be like once Camden was born and “preparing” for him (as if there is such a thing). Then the second half was spent in survival mode trying to keep this little boy alive and keep our day-to-day life the same as much as I possibly could. Looking back over 2016 in my mind everything is different, I am completely different, and there was forward movement but only because God literally had to say to me “Rachel, take this step forward or the fires of hell will rain down upon you.” Obviously I’m not being dramatic there at all (lol) but how gracious of Him to do so because those things really pushed me outside my comfort zone and showed me I was capable of more than I thought.
Thanks to a friend who basically threw me in the deep end and told me to write down SEVENTY FIVE (!!!) things I wanted in the New Year my wheels started turning. Was that possible? Could I really make all these things happen in this year? Spoiler alert: I didn’t think of 75 and no, I’m not going to share all of them with you here today. But I do want to share with you my “word” for the year. (Aren’t “words” so trendy? Aren’t I so hip?) Anyways, here it is:
In 2017 I want to grow in so many areas of my life. My marriage. My relationship with God. My circle of friends. My blog. My capacity for my job. Heck, just my capacity for what I think I can do on a day to day basis. I just want to grow as a person. I’m tired of being scared of the unknown and limiting myself because I think I don’t have the time/energy/support/whatever to move forward in my life. I want to look back at 2017 and be able to measure the growth and progress I’ve made.
Are you super trendy like me? Do you have a “word” for the year? I’d love to hear about them in the comments!